Yes, I do find it healing, mainly because I'm often surprised when my instinct or intuition shows me a new way of feeling or thinking about something. I'll give you an example gladly.
Two years ago, my dad died of lung cancer. After that, I found it difficult to even look at a cigarette, and anytime I saw someone smoking my heart ached for them. That summer I went to a writing conference in Maine where we were given the prompt to ask someone a question. This poem is what came to me then, and I can still remember my own surprise that I should be able to see smoking not only as an act of willful self-destruction but as an act of choice, connection, and warmth. I should tell you that my dad was a lobsterman, and so smoking on the boat was a big part of his life.
Thanks for a great topic!
Are you still smoking?
It’s a bit of warmth on the boat, Kate,
and a lodestone for me.
I know the day’s pattern this way,
like the shadow on a sun dial.
And it’s a compass needle
that points to a James Dean life.
And company, something to share.
Got a light? they say.
Yeah, right here in my pocket.
And a tiny lighthouse in the dark,
a red-eye that finds you.
And yeah, I’ve heard that
about nails in your coffin,
but how about a finger
that points towards a choice?
How about that spark
that says you’re alive?
Kate
18
August 2005