I think about dying. There, I said it. Do you think about dying?
For the most part I think I have a fairly healthy perspective on it. I'm not afraid of it. I've pretty much lived by those old mottos--you know, the ones that go something like....."Live as if it were your last day on Earth." Yeah, I do that. Or...."Don't go to bed mad." Yeah, I do that. "Seize the moment." Yeah! I get those passing thoughts occasionally (do you?), i.e. "If you died right now would you die happy?" Yeah! I'm pleased to say, "YES!"
OK....Universe....got that one down. Can we move onto something else now? 
Oh! There's something deeper here?
OK, but could this be the last time please?
I guess it would be pretty damn ok if I (or you) were to die having been the one to always keep peace. The one to initiate that last kiss of the day before bed. The one who kinda sucked up and swallowed alot of gunk so as to have a "clean conscience" supposing that time were to come. Not much could be bad about that, eh? Could be absolutely no crime in that!
I'm wondering though....is there one of those old mottos I might have missed? Maybe something about how it is equally important to somehow fulfill those very worthy ideas but at the same time honor your Self? Something about the importance of living and dying standing in your Truth, in your Knowing? Open. Free.
Don't ask me --- I'm asking you! 
I consider it my life's work and passion to invoke thought. That certainly doesn't mean I have all the answers 
What I do know is this --- I get those little whispers in my ear at night that I just can't ignore. And lately I've been hearing something like this....."While being a peacekeeper is very honorable and noteworthy (and KEEP doing it) it is also important that you give people the opportunity to know you....to fully embrace all that you are and what you stand for. Would you want to leave full of sucked up and swallowed gunk? Repressed? Or full of knowledge and life secrets that you were were too inhibited to ever share? What kind of legacy would you like to leave behind? And how will people ever know about it?"
I think it takes tremendous courage and hard work and balance to walk the walk --- ALL THE WAY. For those of you who have already had this inner dialogue and are walking it --- I honor you 
Once upon a siddhi
In another mind
You and I were floating
Floating free, soulshine
Released from all the searching
In another time
Seascapes born of yearning
Into another kind
Shimmering beads descending
Pouring backward from the world
Inverted membrane prisms
Our souls, as they unfurl
Soulshine showers
Sunshine blues
They're missing all the bubbles
With their imaginary truths
Clinging to the nothing
Right within their hands
We slip through the netting
Weaved of their demands
Whirring, murmuring,
Pins-and-needle grass blades
Inside, the pearls
Sweet soulshine, the rain
Waft once more gently
Pour into me
Saturate my soul
And One soulshine we will be
The track is barren
I hear laughter
the stands empty
I smell beer
he scrubs his pit, alone
and hauls bags of charcoal
the flags are torn and flapping
"Maryland"
grinding sounds echo
from beneath my flip flops
no break in the wall
just the rush
and momentary silence ~
until the next race.
~I will miss you, Tim. RIP buddy~
I love this idea --
This thought that
I no longer have to wait around and wonder
If or when I'll be "The Chosen One"
By any other human being.
The waiting is over.
I am already chosen.
I am already the One.
I am already Divine.
So from here on out ---
I am the One
Who will choose Me.