Wee Little Graces
Well, Kai is 8 weeks old. I wonder how long am I supposed to be counting his age in weeks? I guess if, years from now, you read a blog post that says “Well, Kai is 936 weeks today and is about to graduate from High School...” I guess that is too long. (Not to mention that by then, I am sure blogs will be as outdated as the HAM radio…)
Anyway, two months into parenthood, I can definitely say that being a Mom has been harder work than I thought it would be. I’ve had some physical challenges since labor/delivery, but even that aside, I must admit that it’s just harder to take care of a baby than I expected. But, there are also so many wonderful things that I couldn’t have expected, either, like…
- I never knew I’d be able to notice so many new, wonderful things about him every single day, and that these little tiny observances would bring me so much joy.
- I never knew I’d be able to see so much of myself in him, already.
- I never knew what it would feel like to watch Kai and his Daddy together. I wonder if that kind of happiness should even be legal. My heart feels so full I think it might burst!
- I didn't know that Kai would be so patient with me, as I’m learning along with him.
- I never knew I’d have such instant kinship with all moms, everywhere…from my local playgroup to my long-distance friends, and, especially, my very own Mom!
- I could never have known what a grounding, humbling, peaceful experience it is to be so connected to a being so pure and simple, and so obviously connected to Spirit. I am certain he is far wiser about life that I am because he knows things I have forgotten.
Kai's little graces are filling the corners of my home and my heart, and I'm a better person because of it. And, as tiring as it is sometimes, these blessings far outweigh the challenges. (Now, just remind me to read this at the next 3 a.m. feeding!)
Here are some new photos:
