Storms Roll Across the Desert
Painting by Constance Bates
Poem by William Charlebois
Sometimes it feels like
God has forgotten me;
my life is filled with endless pain.
I see nothing ahead
but empty spans of sand.
A storm erupts before my eyes.
Lightening fills the sky.
The force of God’s power
trembles beneath me.
In time, the rain passes.
Flowers burst forth everywhere.
An eagle rests silently on a cactus
immune to the spiny thorns.
I watch until it spreads its wings
and soars across the sky.
A promise lights my mind:
“But those who are hoping in Jehovah will regain power.
They will mount up with wings like the eagles.
They will run and not grow weary;
they will walk and not tire out.”
I forget my pain and walk across the sparkling sand.
(Isaiah 40:31)
I get to go to a cardiologist tomorrow for the first time. Yippie! I didn't go to work today, because I guess I'd rather sit home and fret about it. I've been having these weird attacks called "vasovagal." (Rather than give you all the gory details, you can Google or Yahoo vasovagal if you want to find out what the attacks are.) I use to only get them at night after I've gone to bed with a bad cold. My doctor said coughing too much can bring them on. Last Friday, though, I had an attack after leaving a restaurant as we were getting ready to get into a co-worker's car to go back to work. There were four other people with me, and I pretty much freaked them all out. They thought I had a heart attack right there in the parking lot. One called an ambulance, and I got a ride to the hospital. Needless to say, I got the afternoon off from work. I went to our family doctor Tuesday for a followup, and he said it's time to see a cardiologist. It could be rather fatal, not only for me, but for anyone else, if happened to have an attack when I was driving a car. Egads!
Well, the only good part about not going to work today is that I created the digital collage to the left. The background was created by Anna Marie for Artella member's to download if they wanted to use it. I'm calling the collage "Watercolor Love." Hmm. It must have been those hot colors that got to me. Anyway, I'll put a larger version in my gallery if you want to see it. Now I guess I'll go back to fretting about tomorrow.