The Return of Saturn
Caution: the following finds Wozzie in quite the "Emo" and reflective mood. But that's not really a bad thing.
I have heard references to the mystery of changes that happen when someone is between the ages of 28-31 and didn't give it much thought. I just assumed that it was the quarter life crisis that so many are plagued by complete with the heaviness these particular years carry. That perspective changed today when I heard/saw the term "Saturn's Return" three different times. I finally broke down and read about it and, as I did, a grin started to grace my face. I, my dear friends, have been experiencing what I now know as the Return of Saturn.
"If you're in your mid-to-late twenties or even in your early to middle thirties, you are close to the heart of your Saturn Return, and are probably feeling the crush of Saturn's black boot more than you ever have before. If everything feels like chaos, if your relationships are breaking down and you're questioning your career, your friendships, and your very life, it is likely that it's just the ripples of your Saturn Return descending."
So THAT'S what the holy hell has been going on in my life the past couple of years!
Honestly, until today I hadn't thought of this being more than just the name of a beloved No Doubt album. Turn's out the album's working title was originally announced as Magic's in the Makeup in May 1998 and later as Saturn Returns in November 1999. Lead singer Gwen Stefani was confused by her feelings of depression and interest in Sylvia Plath while recording the album. Her boyfriend turned husband, Gavin Rossdale, told her that she was going through her Saturn Return. Saturn's orbit takes 29.4 Earth years and, in astrology, the time when Saturn returns to its position during a person's birth is
believed to be a period of self-evaluation. Many of the songs were written during Stefani's Saturn Return.
What's more is that I found it very interesting that two songs which are very connected to my very own Return of Saturn are on this album as well.
For what has ended: "Ex-Girlfriend"I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriendI hope I hold a special place with the rest of themAnd you know it makes me sick to be on that listBut I should have thought of that before we kissedYou say you're gonna burn before you mellowI will be the one to burn youWhy'd you have to go and pick me?When you knew that we were different, completelyYour wildness scares meSo does your freedomYou say you can't stand the restrictionsI find myself trying to change youIf you were meant to be my lover I wouldn't have toAnd I feel so mean, I feel in between'Cause I'm about to give you awayI'm about to give you away for someone else to takeWe keep repeating mistakes for souvenirsAnd we've been in between the days for yearsAnd I know that when I see you I'm going to dieI know I'm going to want you and you know whyIt's going to kill me to see you with the next girl'Cause I'm the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girlBut I should have thought of that before we kissed...And then for what now is completely gorgeous: "New" Don't let it go awayThis feeling has got to stayAnd I can't believe I've had this chance nowDon't let it go awayNew, you're so newYou, you're newAnd I never had this taste in the pastNew, you're so newMy normal hesitation is goneAnd I really gravitate to your willAre you here to fetch me out?'Cause I've never had this taste in my mouthOh you're not oldAnd you're not familiarRecently discovered and I'm learning about youNew, you're so newYou, you're newAnd you're consuming me violentlyAnd your reverence shamelessly tempting meWho sent this maniac?'Cause I never had this taste in the pastOh you're different, you're different from the formerLike a fresh battery, I'm energized by youDon't let it go awayAnd I can't believe I've had this chance nowDon't let it go awayWhy am I so curious?This territory is dangerousI'll probably end up at the startI'll be back in line with my broken heartNew, you're so newYou, you're newAnd I never had this taste in the pastAnd I can't believe itDon't let it go away, this feeling has got to stayAnd so concludes this little trip down Saturn's Return Road. At least now I know what to be on the lookout for when I'm around 58.